Rajiv Sharma

If I would have been writing on the same day things were happening, emotions and words would have been different. whatever be the situation time is big healer and you always forget small details with time. Was thinking of writing this for long but when things were happening you don't get even time to think leave aside writing something. here I am going into past and remembering Ridit first few months at home. Lot of doubts were in mind when we brought Ridit home for first time. How we would manage things, would we be able to avoid infection, what precautions to take, how we tell Mom, Dad not to touch him, how we are going to avoid friends at home, how to take him to doctors visit as hospital is very far.. we had heard with great power comes great responsibility, I guess opposite is also true with greater responsibility you get power to fulfill it .. Daily routine wake up in the morning, prepare milk for Ridit, write down feed quantity in diary, measure temp, write down in d...

Here comes the day which I feel is the most happiest day of someone'e life .. and you guessed right. But in my our case, I had gone through the same emotions 2 weeks back so I thought the feeling would be same. But this time it was  worrying and tensed than the last time (when doctor didn't operate  and wife came out of  OT without being operated)  and had some unusual unrest.. May be I  was worried more about the coming days than to live in present and believe me in that situation you cant live in present. After waiting for more than hour finally doctor called and passed  the NEWS. not sure I am like that or not but I was still processing it and there was a surprise also.. First it was BOY and second Birth weight was way less than expected.   Here onwards I could understand why physicists are  doing so much research on Nano technologies even if we have bigger units to measure Here onwards ,, I was not sure that life would take such a route...

Its amazing feeling when you go back and read your blogs. You could feel the rush of emotions you were going through when it was written. So how come I haven't  written about the best thing happened in our life.  Well to answer this question is simple .. You dont get time for urself when God showers you the best gift. Its been almost 4 more months and its crazy how things went and still going on ... Well it started with sudden development of hospitalization of wife and suddenly you realize you have just one  night to make  up your mind for the beautiful moment you waited for years.. But instead of excitement, Tension and uncertainty is what you are occupied with. You dont know what is waiting for you tomorrow and you start filling with all negative emotions.. not sure how to support wife or to urself..  Night seems too long and never ending waiting outside ICU. You just dont want to talk to anyone.. You are not ready to accept that it can happen t...