Best promotion in life comes with its own set of challenges( in our case lots and lots of it..)- ICU

Its amazing feeling when you go back and read your blogs. You could feel the rush of emotions you were going through when it was written. So how come I haven't  written about the best thing happened in our life.  Well to answer this question is simple .. You dont get time for urself when God showers you the best gift.

Its been almost 4 more months and its crazy how things went and still going on ...

Well it started with sudden development of hospitalization of wife and suddenly you realize you have just one  night to make  up your mind for the beautiful moment you waited for years.. But instead of excitement, Tension and uncertainty is what you are occupied with. You dont know what is waiting for you tomorrow and you start filling with all negative emotions.. not sure how to support wife or to urself.. 

Night seems too long and never ending waiting outside ICU. You just dont want to talk to anyone..

You are not ready to accept that it can happen to you again and especially when  when you have already gone through so much.. 

Suddenly you open your eyes , Sun has come out, you realize your mind was wandering all night, calculating all possibilities...  Even before you hold yourself, real test starts and next waiting hour is outside OT. And you bet time is relative as Einstein has said. Mins wont pass by..

Another Surprise ... God was giving us more time and believe me starting now I started realizing the importance of hours, days.. and recenlty realized how important ml and grams could be in one's life.. how happy you would feel with even small increase in few ml and grams .. will talk about this later.

From here onwards, uncertainty started killing.  4 weeks  was the which at time seemed too far. 

Daily routine -

Arranging breakfast, checking BP reading, waiting for doctor to come. Just for 30 sec discussion wait for few hours in morning, talk to ICU doctors, wait for sonography results, again check BP, NST readings , arrange lunch , again wait for doctors comments in evening and arrange dinner and no clarity what is going to happen tomorrow.

If some day Sonography report remains same that a bonus.. BP had made his mind not to come down do whatever you want to.. Even after so much research and billions of dollar in RND in medical field, I was shocked no one knew why this happens and any way to prevent it.

Few things God has kept to himself and we are there just to oblige.. Spending daily hours on net to find odds, understanding the impact of sonography reports and waiting for clarity.

You forget about work, about eating, about time, what day is it..

when you think things cant go further wrong, you are called and asked to get Tamiflu.. Loud music outside Hospital, so much Noie due to Ganesh Visarjan and then unexpected request from doctor to arrange medicine for H1N1..This cant be happening to me is the echo going through ur mind..

It was like thriller movie reaching to climax with lots and lots of background noise.
Then friend of mine reminded me that day that I am forgetting one thing out of all this and that is remembering the Ultimate Power. From that day, I visited temple whenever I was down or any positive thing happened.. The realization that finally Its GOD that moves things and as human being you can control and plan your life ...

Well almost sure that 4 weeks target is a mountain to climb without any gear or training, thanking God everyday and Doctor that he is increasing our chances day by day . This would become more clear later...

As uncertainty kept on increasing day by day, reports start deteriorating , NST monitoring continuing for 24 hours, it was time for this to end... however  it was a start for even bigger challenge and enormous patience...