Another life changing event
Thursday, August 29, 2019
2:25 AM
I am back with another life changing event in my life. Not sure why when such thing happens I come back to blog. May be this is the only way to express yourself openly and without worry about what others might think of.
Sitting outside ICU at 2:29 am so many thoughts and future plans going on in mind and I don't know how to put them in order.
If you would ask me the same question last week on 22nd and 23rd Aug, there was just one thought and just one wish. "GOD pls save him" . Nothing else matters !!
And Ridit is little better again mind starts wandering what all things we need to do to make him better.
Its not surprising that things are so clear in such situations. You know whats your priority in life is and how many useless things you can simply ignore without having any side effect.
I believe these are the only times in life, when you are not worried about office, job, small differences in relations, money, savings, loans, growth. This is simple because if life's top priority is not with you then all aims in life will automatically become useless.
The situation makes you realize how much time we waste in stupid things which would otherwise have been enjoyed with loved ones or how life can be so easy by just ignoring small things or ppl.
I am sure only those can understand all this who have gone through such life changing incident.
Last week has been very difficult and its not possible to describe the intensity of the pain to see your kid tied to bed and is on sedatives for almost 6 days.
I still feel like crying when i remember his face trying to cry but there is no sound coming of mouth as his vocal cords are swollen because of Ventilator pipes. Only thing you can see is tears coming of his eyes...
This time it is far more painful to go through all this than when he was in NICU and the simple reason being now we have memories with him over last 3 and half years.
First time in life had to go through the feeling that what if ...... and whether there can be any life without him.
Now since he is out of danger , I am able to think and write . It was not the situation on first few days in hospital.
So many negative thoughts were creeping up in mind .
At home now - 21st Sep 1 AM
With things settled and Ridit has recovered well , routine is coming back to normal. Again started prioritizing other things, future planing, School works etc.
Having fresh memories of the incident , still thinking of improving his immune system, keeping his jacket on even in normal whether, worrying abnormally with even one sneeze, not bathing him evryday. All this , apart from starting his usual therapies and planing what can be done to improve learning.
And ofcourse still keeping the list that was promised to God :)
Parents here and they were big help esp considering how much effort Pratichi has to put for school and how much irritating and frustrating work is.
Wish the same environment would have been from the start. But looks like times like this teaches us lessons and brings us close to each other.
Also everyone has lot of insecurities in life and they go with time only .
Wish we would have all this experience in young age ;);) Life would have been totally different( not sure better though;)
2:25 AM
I am back with another life changing event in my life. Not sure why when such thing happens I come back to blog. May be this is the only way to express yourself openly and without worry about what others might think of.
Sitting outside ICU at 2:29 am so many thoughts and future plans going on in mind and I don't know how to put them in order.
If you would ask me the same question last week on 22nd and 23rd Aug, there was just one thought and just one wish. "GOD pls save him" . Nothing else matters !!
And Ridit is little better again mind starts wandering what all things we need to do to make him better.
Its not surprising that things are so clear in such situations. You know whats your priority in life is and how many useless things you can simply ignore without having any side effect.
I believe these are the only times in life, when you are not worried about office, job, small differences in relations, money, savings, loans, growth. This is simple because if life's top priority is not with you then all aims in life will automatically become useless.
The situation makes you realize how much time we waste in stupid things which would otherwise have been enjoyed with loved ones or how life can be so easy by just ignoring small things or ppl.
I am sure only those can understand all this who have gone through such life changing incident.
Last week has been very difficult and its not possible to describe the intensity of the pain to see your kid tied to bed and is on sedatives for almost 6 days.
I still feel like crying when i remember his face trying to cry but there is no sound coming of mouth as his vocal cords are swollen because of Ventilator pipes. Only thing you can see is tears coming of his eyes...
This time it is far more painful to go through all this than when he was in NICU and the simple reason being now we have memories with him over last 3 and half years.
First time in life had to go through the feeling that what if ...... and whether there can be any life without him.
Now since he is out of danger , I am able to think and write . It was not the situation on first few days in hospital.
So many negative thoughts were creeping up in mind .
At home now - 21st Sep 1 AM
With things settled and Ridit has recovered well , routine is coming back to normal. Again started prioritizing other things, future planing, School works etc.
Having fresh memories of the incident , still thinking of improving his immune system, keeping his jacket on even in normal whether, worrying abnormally with even one sneeze, not bathing him evryday. All this , apart from starting his usual therapies and planing what can be done to improve learning.
And ofcourse still keeping the list that was promised to God :)
Parents here and they were big help esp considering how much effort Pratichi has to put for school and how much irritating and frustrating work is.
Wish the same environment would have been from the start. But looks like times like this teaches us lessons and brings us close to each other.
Also everyone has lot of insecurities in life and they go with time only .
Wish we would have all this experience in young age ;);) Life would have been totally different( not sure better though;)
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